Emotion.Feeling

FinallY...

2007-05-31T13:50:00.001+08:00

Alright, was wondering whether should i blog in the past few days...
but i decided to blog it at the end of the month... ya! 31 May 2007!
Dunno kinda what struck me... but i was really feeling great... i mean really very dam great...
free feeling with nothing to stop me... i can do whatever i like etc...
i like this kind of life... weeee!!
alright.. stop crazy... kinda chim meaning but.... i guess only i know what this means.. :)

so there are alot alot alot of things happened during the month of may...
really alot... alot until i forgot what le... and ima lazy to blog them too...
so i just wanna say " may of 2007 ", goodbye!
what a meaningful and insightful month for me.. :)

Feeling strange....

2007-05-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

Ya! Been a long time... nvr met them to have hm...
a meal + a chain of compeition of pool!
yes! its kwang wee and ryan...
hahz...
abit restless tho', cos of something and sickly feeling...
anyway, quite fun la.... :)

meet kwang wee at jp...
but meet 1st with ryan and take 154 to jp...
the route was same old long journey... -.-"
cannot tahan...
but i stayed awake for the whole journey sia.. ;X
powerful... maybe was busy thinking of things baz....
reached jp...
meet with kwang wee after his working shift at 7.15pm...
arha.. went to haf kfc and have shroom burger... quite nan chi.... yucks...
but anyway its cheap and quite filling.. so nvm.. ;X
after that ryan went to buy things and off we went for pool compeition...!
and we discover the things has changed a lot as well as the pricing...
it became cheaper and there are billard tables somemore!
shiok sia...
nxt time must ask a pro to teach me billard ;P
after that... ard 11pm.. was quite late.. so went home...
i think thats abt all... ;) it maybe kinda a boring day for ya guys...
but to me...
i just wanna spent more time with my fren who is leaving for ns soon...
as well as another fren who wanted to concentrate on his study after his fren has left for ns...
really wish ya guys good luck and may everything be well for ya guys... and i know it definitely will! :)
jia you...

if things were what i imagine...
i think i would rather say "bye bye" to everything...
this is what my heart told me at the ery first instant...

Feeling dam sick...

2007-05-08T13:36:00.000+08:00

Oki... i have not been back for so long huh?
My blog is getting kinda dusty... and abandon too...
Ima sorry, blog... gotcha works + sch. works + some other stuffs....
I guess all these made me sick.. and its very sick....
argh...

5/5/2007
was working 10 hours shift... changed with valerie...
actually 10 hours is not a problem to me at all la... just that dunno why suddenly became sick when working so became restless suddenly...
and also i owe her one as she helped me in the past.. so no problem la...
than after that...
quickly changed into my attire and went off with one of the new projectionist... kinda was rushing home to rest... and thats all for that day...

arha! before i end off for this day.. i remember i saw one thing... there was this patron who has another thumb ( a small one ) on the side of his main thumb... which means he have 2 thumbs... kinda disgusting and all... when i saw this.. i immediately think... how did he do that...? hmm... strange and funny indeed...

6/5/2007
sunday was another shift for me... was working box this time... at this time.. i already have sore throat.. very sore de that type... but i still have to keep "hi, good afternoon" folo by "how can i help?" and bla bla... which leads to an even sorer throat ima having now... dam xin gu! than the 1st few patrons which i served, came a big malay guy.. dam hl... dun think u big size ima afraid of you... you never know... maybe he can sense my hostilness ;X and he always have the same hostiliness... and in the end it was just a misunderstanding... cos his son or whatever la... booked the wrong date for the movie... so we helped them changed.. ZZZZ... ima already sick... and you come still... ;X sometime i really must control my temper.. it seems that the older i get.. the harder for me to control my temper... and the temper will bea very big one i guess....
other than that... not much happening i think....

7/5/2007

today i wake up at 7am plus... bathed at 8am plus cos of someone in my house who always dilly dally in the bathroom... ZZZ
than i quickly set off to sch.
upon reching the bus... kaibin and wan yee saw me sia... but when they called me i was like huh? oh its you guys arh... okok....
nothing much...
reached sch.
went to the info centre to login to sign in... i nvr tot of that sia... smart smart... ;X
after that went to find my fren... as usual...
went to the room.. play cs.. till 4.30pm b4 i went to find my mentor.. and sign something.. and off i go home...
reached home... went to rest immediately... sickly ya know....
and till now all i cna think of was sleep sleep... need ample rest...
think ima going to slp again.. X pig pig!

fear...

2007-05-05T05:19:00.000+08:00

Today was a day for me...
Wake up at 9am plus...
than chiong my project till its like 1pm...
50% done... quite relieved....
than went to eat with grandma... at 651...
decided to have laksa... as i don't really usually eat spicy meals outside...
very nice and filling... :) cheap cheap... $2.50...

after that, went home to sleep a while b4 getting up for work...
went to work... kinda feeling sick... keep running shows... 200 average per theatre...
imagine that... liew... one session is ard 1000 plus patrons...
and it goes on for 3 - 4 sessions...
finally in the end... my legs went wobby...

i experience fear in the first time in my life... kinda uneasy...
it was so xin gu... so imp. but i dun wanna admit it...
am i running away from reality...? maybe...

Working...

2007-05-04T02:50:00.000+08:00

So today i wake up at 8.30am...
and was too lazy to go sch. so skipped sch. ...
asked some of them to help me sign in.. -.-"
in the end, due to some misunderstandings, nvr helped.. -.-"
nvm... dun really care a sh1t abt it...

whole day at home and i nvr even touched my project... ok.. touched a little bit...
i dunno how to do... die.. -.-"
later will try to think of ways to do it... promised...

than work... ard 6+ pm...
kinda smile the whole day..
proud of myself sia... keep wearing the smily face... ;)
though a bit cramp... my mouth.... lolz....

feeling deeper and deeper...
dunno how deep its gonna fell...

4 dayS in a row

2007-05-03T02:09:00.000+08:00

was not blogging for 4 days...
cos i went to genting! nice and exciting experience...
hahz... cos the farest i haf gone to was kuala lumpar...
whew... to think ima 19 years old... going to 20 le...
ok... its going to be bery very a very long posts... careful...
here i go...

29/4/2007
wake up in the morning to get ready for the genting trip...
it was 8.30am in the morning... so haf to get up early for the trip...
reachd boon lay place ard 8.20am and set off at about 9am...
reached there... there are 10 ppls including me... what a big group...
but its fun... hahz...
reached there... it is very cold! dam cold... can fight with the air con in my room...
but i like the feeling and nvr wear my sweater.. lolz...
hao lian... but i really like the feeling mahz... ;X
than me, cd, cl took a cab to resort hotel for the booking as ltr we have to wait very very long...
and it was really alot alot of ppls...
and the hotel izzit that great too...-.-"
when night came... the wind outside is crazy... you can probably freeze outside... trust me..
it is dam big... the wind is so big that it keeps blowing the plants and even trees left to right and right to left...
as usual, they went to the casino... in the afternoon.. while i went shopping with 4 ppls...
ken and his fren... and ken's fren's frens.... a couple...
and me... ima the lightblub...! sh1t man.. and it keeps reminding me... hate that kind of feeling and i was going to explode... but i haf to control... it was supposedly to be a vacation for all of us and we haf to be happy... so i tried my best liao...
at night we went to watch soccer and celebrate one of the guy birthday at a pub..
ordered a dozen of carsberg....
played like crazy... i and ken was feeling very tired... really very tired...
and i played pool with ken's fren and i won.. i think it was cos the balls was dam small and funny, so we keep missing.... even the simplest ball i also will missed... but i still won.. :)
than we went back to the hotel to slp.... for some of us la... some of them went to makan supper till 5.30am i heard...

30/4/2007
wake up ard 9.30am...
went to eat breakfast with another 3of us...
not bad baz.. the foods... its just that some of the foods was not even cook properly!
cannot blame them baz... nvm.. won't die....
but overall, its still very delicious...
especially the bee hoon! wohoooo...
and later on, we went up to the rooms to get ready to set off to casino again.. ken and his fren went ahead 1st...
left me and cd... cd asked me to go in 1st while he goes in later... and he asked me to go extreme right... and wait there...
i waited and waited and waited for like 15 mins.... like an idiot lox... so i decided to explore the rest of the place...
some stations are quite boring, some are confusing, some i dunno ho wto play ( kan bu tong ), some i know and planning to play next trip when ima 21 years old.. wohoooo!
than later on, i went out to shop for things.. for certain reasons of cos! ;X so in the end.... was called by ken halfway that they are going to the theme park and asked whether i want to go ornot...?
i agreed lox... actually no mood to play theme park baz... so nvr even bother to play...
and we stayed inside the theme park for hrs and we played 1 or maybe 2 stations for soome of them... cos of the whether... omg.. u haf no idea how cold it was... not extreme cold... but really cold liao... and our hairs slowly forming droplets in our hair... making us look like idiots lox...
went back to the hotel and have a great laugh man...! they are so funny... i kept laughing with the rest of the peoples... i can say cd is really a great entertainers and so are the others la.. except for some of us.. -.-"
but nvm.... it was fun still! yep!
than i and ken went out to shop and buy things... and i found what i want already! i was so happy... that was the 1st items which i saw and fell in love cos it was really lovely man... that will be my 1st very 1st! genting trip items i saw... and i gonna gif it to taht someone in the future... ;X it is really nice.. got memorable de hor... ;p
than ken and my hps flat.. omg... we went back to the hotel and i went to the toilet.. while they go ahead 1st... i changed my hp.. and sms them where they were.. and they went to a like kopitiam place... nice! 1st ever place where i eat till its like very nice... very very very very worth the money... i swear... ;)
later on... went back and we played again... funny... till 2.30am.. and some of them slp.. while me and some of them went to play casino... hahz.. sneaked in twice but was asked to show id... and not just one but 2... but i still went in anyway...
but in the end i nvr bet... really running low oon cash man...
next next time...
than eat mac... and went back to slp...

1/5/2007
wake up at 11am plus...
it was quite early and tiring for me.. but i still am very awake...
we decided to put our laugguges at the lobby while some of them went to casino again! -.-"
and i with cd went shopping ard.. saw alot of things.... now i realised genting things are very expensive.... all at around RM4 plus.. even a drink... and i came back to singapore and realised the foods here are so cheap...
and so 2.30pm or 3 pm set off.. reached singapore ard 10pm plus... eat with some of them till 11pm plus... and ken's fren sent us back home... thank you... :)
tiring and slp at 1am plus...

today
wake up to go sch. was nearly late to sign in man...
lucky can signed in....
then usual routiune bax... go to library to slp slack...
than go canteen 2 to makan with jun wei... meet till yiwen they all...
so sit with them... and eat...
than i and wei qiang went off to the library... lolz...
i was laughing almost the whole period of time toking alot of tons of sh1ts.... bla bla bla...
funny....
hilarious...
fun....
then 4.30pm we went off...
work... at 6pm...
reached 5.40pm...
candy bar closing... ok.. was quite tiring.. but i love it.. and i beginning to like to do candy bar closing... fun lehz...
i think it was cos of the busy schedule and work loads you haf to do...
but anyway time fly!!
and went back home with sharon, kb... cab...

ending?
i dunno...

meaningless...

2007-04-28T01:39:00.000+08:00

Erm.. missed sch. today... ;X
Alright.. gone for 4 days... so rest today lox...
then i woke up quite early.. ard 10am...
and i think i forgot what i do in the morning liao.. just slacking baz...

arha.. watched a japanese drama show.. which is kinda *******...
lolz... but its very touching...
and meaningful...
kinda love it after towards the end of the episode...

than ard 4pm plus, went out...
so ima not able to take over ryan's shift, ima sorry..

and sleep till now.. 1am plus b4 waking up to do somethings.. lolz

Panda Eyes...

2007-04-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

Ok... it is been 3 days and i sleep for about 10 - 12 hours??
dunno why... but just that this bad habit of mine cant changed...
as a result... kept dozing off in bus or mrt even when ima standing.. can you believe that...??
than i went to see the reflection of myself in the mirror... i dun know whether if that was me anymore?? i looking freaking white with panda eyes...

kinda a normal day.. nothing unusual happen...
but kinda feel heavy when reached home....
parting is an inevitable things for us all..
but just to wish him good luck... live a good life and find his partner soon...
i believe he will, he's too kind hearted... someday some girl will eventually look his good pts instead of his bad pts...

argh... i hate this feeling.. same old feeling... fcuk it!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Tiring!

2007-04-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

Alright... was dam tired even though i sleep at 12 yesterday...
imagine if sleep at 2 or 3am... ok.. ima "KO"
as what i mention above.. sleep at 12... wake up at 7am...
than bath, get changed... and pack afew of my things b4 setting off...
on the way... meet dao xiao de... lolz... tok quite alot to him...
and halfway thru the journey... ( i take 154 ) saw fabian... so qiao sia...
but when the bus reached np than i called out to him cos he sit infront of me and quite far away.. like that call out to him paiseh lehz... ;X

reached np and went to it block to sign in and help one of my fren to sign in too...
than was packing going to library to slack... doing my usual routiunes when i saw yun xie and yu shan... ok... childish.. -.-" same as ever... nvm abt them...
and meet up with one of my fren... we sit at library till 12pm than go it block to find others...
and we went to eat... but with jun wei...
and he wanna skip lesson.. but i think no need la... come already might as well go lox.. attendance got marks... just leave the adsent to days where you dun even bother to come to school lohx... right?? kinda make sense to me la...

than went up and play Cs with my frens... ahz fun fun... long time nr play liao lehz... nice 1!
than played till 5.45pm and off i went to bus stop to wait for ryan until 6.05pm...
reached jp ard 7.30pm... meet diana to pass her comp pass...
than went to eat...
was planning to eat at kopitiam but no seats and lazy to find so straight to fastfoods..
kfc... and i order shreen burger... yummy... and suddenly want to eat cold straw ( i think spell this way... ps arhz... ang moh failed... ) ;X
nice nice.. yummy dinner i haf...
than later steven joined us..

off we went to gv to watch movie... "nightmare detective"...
ok... was abit gross nia la... but.... story line sux... plots makes no sense... and kinda like make you understand and dun understand... -.-" so overall it sux!

acc. them to bus interchange and see them off...
went to 711 to bug things and went outside to sit... i was all alone.. but suddenly saw familiar face... hahz... its fabian.. and hes wearing the same clothes and me wearing the same clothes when we meet in the morning in the bus... ( ok.. qo zhi dao mei shi mo hao ta jing xiao guai... but i myself think its quite unexpected la... ) ;)
tok cocks with him and time passes real quickly b4 kenneth, chi lun, wendy, rachel came down..
and we ( chi lun, kenneth, me ) haf to wait for like another 29 more mins for changde to drive his car from kallang.. lolz... nvm la... at least he still came down to drive us... they wanted to eat but i wanna go sch. tmr de lox... cannot cannot.. be guai kia liao... ;) so went home... and thats my day...

and if i dun slp now.. tmr gotcha die... a terribly death... -.-"

2007-04-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

Ok... Its been 2 days ( plus today ) since i blogged...
hm. let me see...
yesterday, was a normal day...
just went to sch. for the sake of attendance...
and rtned home with ryan...
though it was a unexpected meeting up with ryan to go home together...
it was fun anyway to haf someone to acc. ya go home... sitting on that 1 hrs plus bus trip... -.-"
especially his samsung K3 mp3.... ;X
than reached jp and eat and all... and we went home...

and today.. i skipped school... ;X
but.. i got a reason.. i haf to go make my passport... as ima going to genting this sunday!
ok... excited? yep, cos my 1st time leaving that far... lolz... SK kia... no choice...
and i recevived call saying the trip costs 124 just for the travelling.. expensive...
nvm... after this trip i shall save a bit more for my car expenses liao...
YA! license b4 june!
i promise....

Normal...

2007-04-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

Promised kenneth to go gym with diana...
but... in the end, i was supposed to take over rachel shift...
oh no... so in the end, skipped the trip to gym... ;X sry ken and diana...

went to work at ard 12.30pm as i lost my schedule and wanna reach eariler so i wont be late...
on the way... i keep thinking hard what time rachel shift was... 13.X5... i know its somethings like that... but i just cant rmbr what the number for "X" is...
anyway, glad ima not late lox...

than worked for 8hrs plus... today was not feeling bored at all!
quite happy feeling... though i cant tok much cos...
i smile too much! and its was all fake/forced smiles!
quite painful after 4 to 5 hrs...
no choice la... no talent in smiling... and and...
i think i know why i cant smile liao... cos i got a small mouth... yes.. small...!
i concluded that after looking at myself in the mirror.. bo liao... i know -.-"

Tired....

2007-04-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hm... today was quite happening...
i can't slp till 8.30am... omg...
cos i was kinda fustrated by something... Zzzzzz...
and woke up at ard 1pm... went to bathed and everything b4 setting off to jp to meet ryan, jia qian, kwang wee...
i was late... i tot they are going to be late and ima going to be early.. ;X oppX...
nvm... than we went on to think whether where should we eat...
and suddenly i decided on sunkae sushi... hm.. suddenly craving for it...
though i keep saying the b'day boy decide.. ;X oppX again...
so we went to the library there... near jp...
and we look at the buffet thingy.. i rmbr its at ard 2 or 3pm... got buffet de... and jia qian, who is looking very confidently saying cfm got one etc.. and in the end.. -.-" only week days got.. okay.. she dam paiseh... aiya nvm la.. cos the menu paste outside the door nvr indicate clearly.. its the sukae sushi staff's Fault!...! ya!
and we began to eat and ordered ramen... i decided to eat rice menu but the sushis are all made of rice.. omg.. so changed to ramen instead... and the hot japanese green tea... not bad la... nice... to me.. not to them... lolz...
but i wanted to eat somemore de... in the end we stoped... at...
19 plates... we decided to stop as... Expensive le... pianZ... 1.90 each...
in the end.. the bills are like 88 plus... aiya... quite ok la... ;X
than i tot next time got chance, go else where got buffet de... and eat like a pig!
sushis are so nice...
than we went on to pool... kinda played for a while and we get bored... pool are boring to me already... always hated the idea of playing pool... but we wanted to kill time.. so we went there...
and played till like 5.35pm... ard there... jia qian went off to work...
after she left, a few more rds and we went off to wee's hse!
nice...! like there... always got things to play... X box, monopoly ( which i dun really like to play at all ), cards...
and of cos, his home is always so homely la... not like mine... haiz...
after that we went off at ard 9pm to reach jp to eat again!
i bought student meal *nuggets and a sundae *choc...
nice... why? cos i just found out french fries mix with vanilla cream is dam dam dam nice...!
imagine the hot hot french fries and the cold cold vanilla cream enter your mouth together at once... and the wei tau is not weird also... nice nice! really fat like sh1t le la... NS in one year le...
and we went off to liberty as ryan wanna buy some tibits... and all... and while walking to the basement... i saw one gal keep looking at me at the edge of my eye... familiar sia... so it was her... so i just waved and smile....
and when we are walking halfway to gv... steven called and say cant make it.. -.-"
()*()&(... nvm... dun really...
so in the end watched with them....
the show's songs are so cute and nice... and the gal... so innocent like the guy say... its true cos when i saw her, it give me that feeling too... not like amy or something which i dun even bother to rmbr the name... another kind of prettiness...
and we split up at jp as usual...
i just feel they are so... hm... nice baz... but gotcha separate soon... but in the end, just going to wish kwang wee's good luck in the army while ryan's good luck in his poly..
and for me...? i dunno...

B'daY...

2007-04-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

It's a blessing to know you...
though its not even a year yet...
but i know we treat each other as friends... i hope...
but i just wanted to let you know i really treat you as a friend, someone who i really can entrust some of my problems to you, though you always *oppX*...
spill the beans bag... but its ok la...
i don't blame you...
thanks for everything, "friend"

Happy Birthday.... to you.... :)

FUCK OFF....

2007-04-21T05:45:00.000+08:00

Alright, ima pissed...
Alright all i wanna say was... dun simply ka limbei tok cocks....
it may be dam true, or false...
but i dun think i wanna heard it... or even accidently heard it...
so when toking, please go thru ya mind clearly 1st b4 toking them out...
ima sorry... but i just would like to tell ya to "fuck off"...

fucking pain whenever i heard about something fucking thing...
its such a long time liao le...

Moody Day...

2007-04-20T05:17:00.000+08:00

Ok, back to blogging aftr 2 days of not blogging...
alright, its seems that ima not in a mood to blog during that period of times as i got tons of problems to settle myself...

At Work
...............
was working today, kinda feeling down and moody but not angry... ima sure of that...
was feeling kinda dun want to tok to anybody...
but cant really let the mood affect the other ppls...
so decided to not to go into candy bar to help to "cold" the atmosphere...
and i walked cinemas, checked toilet, swipe the floor etc... almost walking ard to prevent my "non - laughing" face to appear infront of the customer...
ya know MS thingy...

so tmr ima going to make it huh?
promised someone...
so... gotcha o it no matter what...
ima sure of it....!

School
...........
Sign in, helped 2 of my frens to sign in too...
kinda always asked me to help... but no choice la...
help help lox if its within my control...
than help them to sign out and i sign out b4 leaving the sch. at ard 5pm...
took 74 to dover...
reached jp at 6.04pm.. ard there i think...
than change and everything and work....

tonS to say.... am i thinking alot again... like...

2007-04-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

so i was in school... was helping alot of ppls to sign in and sign out...
kinda lame sh1t... -.-" nvm nxt time will need their help too...

reached sch. at 9.20am...
went to the library and determine to stay there till my sign out time...
was now trying to think what can i do...
maybe do some works b4 some casual playing of games.. or sleep... my pro. :)

and this is the 1st time i blogging in school... not bad feeling...
and i dunno why when i was writing blog... i would get irritated if someone came behind me and kept staring at the content of what ya are going to write... maybe thats why ima irritated...
privacy... privacy...
now alone at a corner writing blog... so carefree... and alot of privacy definitely...

ok.... dunno why suddenly i wanna write this entry in the morning whereas for the past 2 days i had a dun want to write blog attitude...

it really suck when the more i look back...
ya know its like...
ya say atons of things to the reason why we split...
and i truly trust ya difficulties and everything...
so i haf decided to leave ya alone... tho. i could still kept thinking abt ya and everything...
but the more i uncover what the sh1ts other ppls haf done... it had really made me wonder is it really the reasons that ya haf say came from ya own heart based on our relationship progress or... is it created only when ya haf accumlated all the rumors or facts ya have heard from other ppls....
dun ya think it is quite funny... its like so suddenly... "alright, lets be friends"...
and what can i do... 24 hrs / 7 days with ya so that ppls would not tell things abt me and you which i believe majority of them are Bad!
they choose to tell ya and ima not against that... i mean in terms of like ya heard.. ya think.. and ya would like share with me? and i would know what ya would be thinking or whatever...
how the sh1t do ya think i know what ya are thinking when ima like such a noob in this kinda of things...
like theres one time where 3 of ya guys were working cb closing.. one of them were actually toking abt me and you... and ya were there listening to her... and ya kinda believe her... whereas need another person who ima ok to her to console ya by saying "nope, he's not that kind of person, relac.." hey, c'on ima your ( tat time ).... and ya would rather believe a outsider or rather a bloody hell gossiper or whatever sh1ts and... another fren of ours to console ya... funny...............................

it gives me that you dun really trust me at all feeling...
and i believe i wanna like maybe actually salvage the relationship...
but... ya just like dun wanna...
ok... maybe ya are determined or what...

but do you think till now we can still be together again with the same old feeling.. i dunno... and i truly wish we can... i would definitely choose that... but when i have decided to be together with ya again ( i dunno got chance or not, but my feeling say can )... i got a kind of "no" " NO" feeling...
maybe i haf to wait for one day where actually my feeling and ya feeling are right baz.. maybe that day will nvr come at all, or it maybe come... we nvr know... now this is the best time to use "let nature takes it course", ypu, thats the phrase.... ZZZZ

feeling still sux like my past entries.. forever...

i still like you... or uses "love" to describe the feeling ima always towards you... up till now...
and you are always that impt. to me the day when i actually was asked by ya whether i wanna eat and ya help me buy... tho. i kept saying "nope, thanks".. its not like ima not appreciating ya help... but actually ima kinda of person which if ima really wanna asked ya to help me do something, ya are really close to me and my fren... those days... though i kept pushing ya to other ppl... but i was also keep wondering whether why did ya do this... that feels like ima kinda impt.. very impt... to ya... and its not like i dunno anything... i feel something... that very special something from you... you actions, your eyes, your smile, your :( at times....
and to be truthful, these actions ya made really made me dam happy at times... its not like freaking me out... so what does that mean... love????????

2 days...

2007-04-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

Alright... Ytday...
was blogging ard 12am plus.. and suddenly i was scolded by my mum...
ok partly its my fault...
but... was feeling kinda irritated.. very irritated...
dunno whats the reason... it suX...
forgot everything i wanna blog.. ok.. it suX again...

today...
nothing much too...
was slacking in sch.
find frens... eat lunch... go back classroom and slack till its sign out time...
thats a routine for me from now on...
IHP sux... so everything sux sux...
ZZZ

tmr nid to wake up early for sch... sux again...
so everything i see sux....
SUX!!!!!!!!!

usual...

2007-04-15T03:05:00.000+08:00

nothing unusual...
just working...
but... candy bar was open for the 1st day...
and ouch... 5 closers and need 2 hrs to clear everything...
the warmer so hard to wash....
the 2 poppers have to be washed at the end of the day...
and supplies have to be topped up... and it was a little bit only... its alot.. tons tons...
and all the things we need to used to close the candy bar cannot be found... nid to spent some time searching...
woah... maybe we arn't used to the new candy bar yet...
hm.. thats all baz.. nothing...

why am i still thinking.....

Tired Day... but happy... :X

2007-04-14T05:50:00.000+08:00

Alright... just reached home... and here i am blogging...
oh no... i think addicted to blogging... ;X

so today was a tiring day...
morning, reached sch. at around 9.20am....
signed in... and go to lecture...
on the way... i came across a classroom with my mates in it and the lecture hall was empty...
i was wondering why.. so i asked them.. and they say itsat 11am...
so i joined them in the classroom till 11.30am.. and we decided to skip the lecture.. aw...
nvm baz... heck care alot le.... so we went to eat and went back to the same classroom and waited till 5pm.. and off we go...
ouch... slacking too much really tires one out...

and... so went to work... really haf the heavy slpy feeling...
kinda wanna die... and i heard from jun jie that somebody point middle finger behind my back...
grrrr... if ya dare, point infront of me lox... see how i deal with ya... ZZZ hum kia...
and after that was asked to do the moving of stuffs inside the new candy bar and washing up some of the things... do until around 5am.. and reached hme... ard 5am plus lox...
now i am tired but dun wanna slp.. -.-"
so tired but happy... ;X

Lame... Boring...

2007-04-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

Ok.... today morning when i was having breakfast with my mum...
suddenly had a feeling of not going to sch.
wanna smsed frens to help me sign in and sign out...
but in the end... if i dun go sch. where can i go??
so... i go in the end... ( surprised ima so hardworking... ;X )

and when i was about to reach np... ok... just leaving jurong point only...
my mates called... to see whether i wanna them to help me to sign in...
and of cos i wanna... ;X
but i know in future i have to help them too... got motive got motive...
but nvm... help help lox.. won't die...

arha... go for lecture for less than... this time 20 mins... ;P
lolz.. at least i did go.. and i marked my attendance and off i go with my mates...
went to haf lunch... mee por at canteen 2... quite badly cooked...
forgot got duck mee! oh my god.. my favourite.. and i rmbr i eaten with jun wei last sem. b4 we go for holiday and i forgot abt it this sem. -.-" and i haf to eat the mee por...
but i think i was hungry and i managed to eat finished the whole bowl...
why it was badly cooked...? The mee not fully cooked, chilli like... very hot le... hm... not much ingredients... and the amount of mee is dam less... eat le still hungry... grrr.. still $2 each...
after that.. was discussing where to watch movie and watch what movie...
TMNT, Number 23, Smoking Aces, Meet the robinsons <--- arha, feeling like to watch this movie... especially the sence which i seen in trailer... "I have big head.. and little hands... with the action the dino making... made me smile awhile... and the songs was dam nice at the end of the show lox..." kinda haf a sad and conclusive movie... i think ill watch it oneday...
in the end smoking aces... and guess what... it suck to the core really... ppl... dun watch that... waste of $$...

after movie, we went back to sch. and waited for 1.5 hr more b4 we sign out... and i sleep again.. whew... always like a pig... and when i wake up... headache... feeling dam painful and as a result abit tulan... wanted to come home quickly and take mrt... my $$ is dropping like water... omg...
than ryan smsed me to meet him so i wait for him at the bus stop... for nearly 1 hr... with the headache.. ima like OUCH ARGH....
reached jp and we went to eat at kopitiam...
and i eat rice... though i dun really like to eat rice... but just wanna eat lox.... and the noodle eat till sianz liao le...
and when i go buy drinks... somebody called my name dam loudly.. ps lox... and i saw jackie, rong xuan, luo yi... wat a conicidence... whew...
and they say maybe next week badminton.. yay.. hands abit itch and i request de ;X but they are always doing the booking and bring the rackets.. they're so kind ;X ops!

and when i reach home.. she sms me sia... say she saw me... ok...
but i didn't saw her le.. maybe my eye pa jua...
nvm......

Boring...

2007-04-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

Ok... reached sch. at 9.23am...
so signed in...
and went for the lecture...
go there for ard less than 15 mins and ima out...
you can imagine how boring and relunctunt i am towards sch. now...
just hate school... argh....
and... went to eat with some of my mates at bukit timah plaza...
eaten the nasi lemak... though its kinda VERY Ex... but its nice.. not bad not bad... :) ( ok now ima kinda drooling ) *hungry...

after that we parted at "it" block and went our way...
i go to my class and when i reach outside i saw inside no supervisor... sh1t him...
dam slacker sia... nvm... i slack for 1 week also... ;X
so i went to the library and slept for a total of 4 to 5 hrs... woah...
but its a very nice place to slp... like it...
and when it was time for me to sign out.. i went home...
on the way down the staircase in front of the library... saw Yu Shan and Yun Xie at the sam machine...
think one of them are paying bills... but i didn't really bother to call them...
kinda.. ;X ok dun wanna say... if they see me i just "hi" lox...
opX...

and went home... was deciding whether am i going to take bus or mrt.. but i decide to take mrt... so kinda wanna wait for 74 to dover.. and 154 came... -.-"
argh... so i change to the idea of taking the whole journey to jp since i haf so much time...
but guess what... the bus is hot... but nvm la... i can tahan... but the bus speed was like... woah... slow until like tortoise... can die le... its like it took 30 mins just to travel from Np bus stop to clementi...
omg... i decide to change the idea of taking mrt again.. since i nvr decide to buy bus concession yet...
reached home and was dam happy... bath... changed clothes and slp!! until ard 9pm and went for the movie " turistas ".... quite ok baz... i open my eyes and see the gross sences... brave ;X
i think the movie gals are all beauties sia with very nice figures.. opX... ;X

than i reach hme and it was 12am... and i blogged this...
ok... tmr need to slack for 8 hrs again...
what can i do again huh??
"think hard" think hard" * scratching head

Different...

2007-04-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

you are not like that in the past...
but why did you become like that...
i once regard you as my fren...
but now...
the feeling i always get from the tone ya toking really scared me...
i hope ya will realise that yourself...
may the best on you...

so... sometimes things are not neccessarily needed to say it out...
thats me...
i guess thats why ppl always know nothing...
but do i really need let you know those things i do to get you back...?
i mean its not the true feeling... its just like you feel touched by what i did... and...
but thats not what i want!

^^ / :) / :> / :} / : ]

2007-04-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

^^ / :) / :> / :} / : ]
as you can see, they are all smily faces...
it means...
i am happy... ^^
Happy......
happy....
happy..

Crazy.... -.-"

(&^&%^%^

2007-04-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

what a day...
as usual working...
but this time my heart was suddenly filled with anger!!!!!!
at that moment...
i think everybody could see that... cos the moment ima angry... you could see it right away...
i shall not say anything...

but this is something which i truely felt...
i respect you... you shld respect me too...
dun think that ya keep nagging and nagging at me and i kept quiet means ima easily to bully...
trust me... ya would not really like to see the angry side of me...
with the level of tolerance in me... its truely that you are truly impressive if ya can made me dam pissed...
thats all

am i still that important in her as last time...?

Si Zai De Confused... And Words Kills...

2007-04-08T04:31:00.000+08:00

kinda know that i still missed u...!
but my heart just won't allow anyone in atm...
its like ima kinda happy and cheerful with no worries and burden...
but... BUt... but... but... its still as painful as ever...
seeing her made me feel ima dam fortunate...
thinkin' back made me feel ima stupid...
haha... funny... after so long...
and sometimes a flame of fire appear in my heart when ima thinking back...
to her or other ppls...?
ima not sure at all... to both...? i dunno!

rumors definitely kills merciliciness...
its like does the words they are toking goes thru" their mind...? Considering whats the consequences will be...?
its kinda like... ya are trying to say out everything ya are going to say just cos... ya fren??
i dun think so... its just BUSYBODY!
humans are dam funny... funny like sh1t.. funny till i dun wanna know anything anymore and just lead my own life... i dun really care a fcuk of whats going on...
its their dam problems... their problems... not mine...
and if ya guys wanna me to know something... its not that ima not interested...
its that even if its just a single wrong word in a sentence could translated the meaning into another meaning... thats why i dun even wanna speak to ya if its related to some kind of dam complicated problem even tho' its related to my fren...
thats how terrifying words could be...
no wonder politicals are so powerful... even more powerful and effective than weapons...
so consider confusing enough??? one moment.. dun wan... one moment... wan...

watching other ppl was trying really hard to salavage the relationship...
and i trust they will not be separate...
i think i can sense that baz...
cos the guy did put in effort...
and the gal reaction... se bu de...
hahahahaha...

Feel Great...

2007-04-07T03:39:00.000+08:00

was working 2nd eos for today...
with jia qian...
and the 1st thing i arrive, i was kinda pissed at andy...
his attitude... but nvm la... his character...

and... finally during the last session, i began to help candy bar closing...
arha... people came out from theatre 5!?!?
phew.. i look at the timing.. kinda eariler by 1 min plus...
if haf ms.. wohooo... cfm tio... die... must buck up le... tmr and the next next day i shall give my full attention and smile like hell... that will be a promise... yep...

than when rachel was given the voucher, i was asked to leave...
but i was reluctunt to leave... for some reason... and anyway hm also wanna do smthing i think...
so i stayed and help candy bar closing and jia qian in running the shows...
ended ard 2.40am.. waited for hp and hiker till 3am plus...

and met diana at 711 there... was asked whether wanna acc her walk home.. but i dun think i wanna baz... sry sry arhz... nxt nxt time ok? promise... :)

Boring and tiring...

2007-04-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

2 words boring and tiring...

woke up ard 9am by ryan's msg to meet up at 2.30pm..
slp till 11am plus...
can't contiune slp so wake up... bath...
waited till 2.14pm than i began to get ready... reached at ard 2.45pm at bl interchange to meet him...
kinda tired as i slp for ard 5.30am to 11am... not enough...

we decided to take mrt to clementi and switch to bus to go np
he needed to go there for enrolment and i haf nothing to do so helped him by guiding him to np...
and later on he acc me to vivo as i nid to rtn something and get something...
was kinda told to wait... so i decided to return to get the thing when i decided to leave vivo...

then we went to eat bk.. and i question mark.. dunno what to eat.. as i seldom eat bk...
and i choose the new combo -- > double pepper burger...
quite nice and filling... very...
and after that we decided to walk ard vivo till ard 6.10pm b4 leaving for jp as ryan needs to work...
and i decided to rtn home to rest...
along the way... asked ryan some things... and i was dam pissed again...
she really made me damm pissed... dislike... grudges... hateness...
such a gal also exists.. liew... made me feel disgusted...

ya are becoming even more important to me as times went by...
i hope ya will wait for me...

sudden...?

2007-04-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

Suddenly felt a feeling of scary...
it just came suddenly...
i feel that ima so afraid the future will be just me...

TruthS...

2007-04-05T04:41:00.000+08:00

Just back from supper...
with....??
HY , HP , Kenneth , Leslie , Fabian , Jia Qian , Annabel , Serene , Steven
and... they are all sharing their point of views with each other...
sharing tons and tons of views... which really relates kinda alot to the real side of the world...

know the management are always trying to make us smile... trying every ways and means to make us smile... even threaten to uses punishments to make us smile...
and i really tried my very best to produce a smile... its not i dun wan.. or i cannot... i know i can smile... but its just that i feel that in this world not i cannot smile a very smile out which can make everyone sees it...
but i always tried to uses my sincerity and friendiness to serve the customers needs...
i really hope these can cover up the sin of not smiling... and express out to the customers that they are really important to us and we are trying our very best to serve them to the best...
hope we can smile!!!! like this :)

Cant i just smile..?

2007-04-04T00:28:00.000+08:00

Ok... today work was damm sianZ...
i was told that i haf to smile as ima not smiling this whole period of time...
but i really did tried to smile... its just not that min sian when i smile...
hp keep telling me not to be the person who drag the whole Gv down...
liew... ima trying...
so tmr i shall keep walking and keep running show... dun show my face...

Ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

Was working candy bar opening...
took over sharon's shift...
Ar!~! Ima how free now... ok...
Wednesday going to take over Chi Lun's shift...
Ok... working like siao now...
Still a few more months, less than a year, and ima going to leave that place...
Nvm... Ar~!

The feeling was back again...
But was with a feeling of a little hateness...
why can't she just have a bit of fighting spirit in her...
why did she choose to give up that easily???
does finding the one who like each other that easy in one person lifetimes???
ok... i think the anger will last just a little while...
and ima not completely blaming her for the happening as it is not her fault and not me to judge whose fault is it...
but if ya really wanna save the relationship why cant ya just at least gif a hint...
its really like... ya wanna wait for somebody to take action 1st....
and its not like ima reluctant to take the 1st move.. its just that that was ya 1st choice.. and ya kinda of like cfm it... i dunno whether ya given up ornot... its like... ya listen to here and there and here and there and what thing... and in the end ya choose that... and later ya listen to other ppl again.. than ya feel reluctunt and like kinda regret it.. of cos i really would like to know and cfm that the answer would be cant bear with the decision or kinda regret it.... but dun ya think its kinda funny...??

Candy Bar Closing...

2007-04-02T00:47:00.000+08:00

Today was doing candy bar closing...
and around 6pm++
there was one particular customer...
was very rude sia... really made me wanna smack him in the face...
was serving him drinks + foods...
and he asked for how much for the foods...
i told him and he throw the money one by one on the warmer...
wow...
i was like... pissed.. for while...
SMACK SMACK smack
ARGH!~!

so after that was the candy bar closing... was scrubbing the popper...
wow... scrub till hand cramp... and now i haf blistes on my finger...
a small white dot with skin popping out... kinda cute... -.-"
muscles growing bigger and bigger... nice :)
training more and more le... :)
lucky they buy new scrubs sia...
if not... candy bar closing till 1am.. -.-"
and of cos some of the ppls who helped us in the closing... thanks a lot...

hm.. tonight slp early, candy bar opening... :) money!!! opZ

Last Day... GoodByeZ...

2007-04-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

So... 31 March 2007 marks the last day for SD...
Though ima not very familiar with the staffs working there...
but i guess ima gotta miss there alittle bit...
the hotdogs... the places... and one of the auntie... :(
it was truly a joy working there... :)
when thinking back...
ima not going back there ever again...
truly pain my heart now...
but its a must to leave that place...
sooner or later... if ima not going to leave now...

"GoodBye" SD......................
Feeling Suxy Now... the same old feeling came back again... ARGH!~!
I HATE THIS FEELING!

Thoughts...

2007-03-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

How i wish things would be back to the way they are...
Humans are always like that...
Once lost, tots of cherish came to mind...
But, its too late...
I guess...

Blog..

2007-03-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

meet luo yi , rong xuan and their fren at jp for dinner...
the moment we met, luo yi kept laughinng non stop...same pattern... -.-"
nvr changed...
but really enhances one ppl's day up...
after dinner we went for pool...
was kinda surprise their pool skills improve tremendously... ( the girls )
even i haf to bai them sometimes... :X

Was planning to blog in the early morning...
But was kinda tired... so turned in quite early after another supper with kenneth, steven, chi lun and his frens, malcom...
the supper was quite interesting with steven and malcom always trying to use verbal words to attack each other... making me and kenneth sometimes lmao...
ended ard 3am plus...

and i ate 2 dinners...
woah.. full like hell for last night...
so i decided to skip the supper... i mean in terms of eating supper...
just sitting ard them... drinking...
and i began to like coke more and more... its kinda addicting...

the rest of day was a normal day baz...
later wrking again... :(
but nvm, money makes me smile for now... :P

Pay day...

2007-03-29T03:43:00.000+08:00

Pay finally came...
i survived... but think gotcha used 3/4 of my pay by this week...
whew... cant believe... nvm... gotcha my SD pay havn't come...
a few hundreds more really helps alot... :)

was working candy bar closing with fabian...
nice one... we finished fast...
by 11pm we are left with mopping the floor and sweeping the floor...
arha... but we dragged until 11.20pm and i was surprised that i have a cab to home...
nice... GV is so kind to allow us to take cab home even tho we finishes at 11.20pm onli...
really appreciate it alot... :) kinda fun to stay there and work... but parting is a sure thing for everyone... nvm... used to that... but my hearts kinda feel suxy...

WarM Feelng....?

2007-03-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

So... was just back from dinner with ken they all...
had a wonderful actually... taken alot of photos with them...
was surprised that i actually took photos with them... no hesitation / reluctunt...
dunno why...? maybe ken was right... warM!
it kinda melted my hearts actually...

and they really have tons of stories to share...
was great sitting in the center hearding their stories and complains...
will nvr ever forget them... regardless of whatever the reasons are... :)

Thinking...

2007-03-27T03:36:00.000+08:00

Ytday....
Box for 8 hrs and 45 mins...
money... MoneY...
Nice....

wow... was wondering how am i going to survive candy bar closing on wed.?
but hope i will be fast... in washing the poppers...
i haf faith in myself as well as in Fabian... Yep!

Quite tired... was just back from supper with ken and cl...
had quite a good laugh cos they really made lame jokes...
abt anything in the world... insects to reptiles etc...
i tried to contribute but i was just so speechless... always like that... one word.. dun tok...
but was nice to heard their stories....

so tmr going out with them...
ima thinking of whether am i really extra to join in as ima quite a stranger to auntie ann tho we know each other...
but nvm... since they insist, ill join in dun disappoint them... :)

AND
damm... i rmbr told steven to change my 27 march 2007 to NA...
and he told me they nid ppl so i sms him told him to put b4 5pm as they require ppl and ill help them as much as possible.. but partly reason cos i nid money...
in the end.. was made into eos... after 5pm... 6.05 to 11.50pm!
wow... kinda... dunno how to say....
but nvm... JQ free and willing to help me... was glad...
thanks! :)
Owe her one... will rmbr that... yep!

oki... gotcha rest.. tmr another day...

another day...

2007-03-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

So it was yet another working day for me...
So work again...
But it was quite nice...
Cos i was not bored at work...
its been like 2 weeks which i always feel bored at work at times...

so working as a customer service line was not tat easy after all...
it requires skills and patience when dealing with different kind of customers...
today, when i was serving a customer...
i suddenly saw a malay muscular man approaching ryan's counter but was told that his line was supposed to be for customers who pay using "platium" card...
so he went away...
but suddenly out of nowhere, the same malay guy came out... scold ryan... for being biased or racials...
i tot ryan would scold back or wat... but he was very professional... despite being scolded... he still calmly tried to explain to the impatient malay guy...
woah, totally admired his style... surely got a customer service style indeed...
i can see even the malay guy was surprised by his attitude, and calm down and even say "sorry" to ryan as he say the wrong timing to ryan... and the malay guy changed his attitude in the end...
and ryan kept explaining to the malay guy while serving him...
it was just a small misunderstanding baz.... glad the malay guy know that in the end..
and all endS well! :)

oki.. heard auntie was kana burned till whole skin came out....
sia... but i dunno who... auntie lye huat or... auntie jenny...
whew.. should be careful lox... cant blame candy bar so small and yet bean's movie is always FULL with no single seats available... but they shld put more ppls to work in the morning ma... doesn't hurts to spend alittle bit more as bean's movie is helping them to earn that much...
get well soon!

and i was standing the whole time at the box office serving...
it was not tired at all.. :) but rather it was a nice and smooth day... with alot of things to do...
am i crazy...?
but i would rather haf something to do than nothing to do...

so tmr was asked back suddenly huh?
Nvm... nothing to do also... so earn more money... yay! :)
got a feeling nxt month alot of money... maybe! and ill nid it all!

Hmm....

2007-03-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

Was another day of working... weee...
means got more money.... yay!
quite a short day...

was working at 5pm to 11pm...
but i was late by 20 mins cos of some1... -.-" nvm
the manager dun care anyway... but cant became a habit myself... yep...

so was working as usual... serving dishes and cleaning dishes/tables...
than i was summoned to distribute flyers...
actually, nothing to say abt that as i do that quite a lot of times...
to my surprise... i was kana chased by vivo + mrt managements... was quite angry as they are really rude...
and i haf to walk a big rd cos of the stupid alarm.. false alarm and all the shutters was closed tightly...
but it was great, can take a break by sightseeing... :)
so when i reached SD, i told my collouges... they say izzit??
and i know it illegal to distribute flyers... and i even asked the manager to recfm and it was real...
haiz... what a world... cant blame the management too.. doing their jobs... yep!

was persuaded by my fren to stay at SD... but i know i cant stay long...
ima not sure he does this cos they are lacking of staffs or out of good intention...
i dun really care really... his a fren to me and one who took care of me when ima new and the management tried to take advantage of me... will always rmbr of that... in my heart...!
was thinking.. makes sense... but haf to admit... i cant tahan... in the sense of like attachment, SD, GV and studies... together at once... oh no.. cannot cannot...
so sry... my fren... nxt time free glad to help ya again... experienced another job atmosphere... thanks! :)

arha....! rmbr today when i started working... i cleaned a table.. suddenly i saw there was a tag with a note on it... containing words begging you to help him by buying that tag... hm... maybe it was a lied... but he was quite pitiful... dunno why he didnt find a job himself... maybe there are reasons we cant see...

sometimes there are a lot of things which are beyond our controls... there are things which we dun want but it just appear out of nowhere... things that we want but it just wont let you... or things that we want and we got it but we waited till it was too late for us anymore and until we haf lost it than we began to cherish it... whew, dun you think human are simply amazing....

so just a advise to ppl who read this post...
cherish b4 its too late...
no matter whats the reasons are... how impt or watsoever...
cherish b4 you regret it...

Normal WeekEnds...

2007-03-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

Just back from work...
nice working day today...
just normal serving and all... nothing special...
except for.... 2 cases... quite funny...

1st case...

was serving a table...
i gave him fries + a hot coffee and suddenly his face changes color...
OMG... did i serve the wrong dishes?? ( which is normal )
so i asked him what happened... and he mumbled some "ice" "ice" towards the coffee...
and the rest was something in JAP which i dun understand at all...
arha... he wanted ice coffee... i guessed...
so i get him some ice and offered him to pour the ice himself into the coffee...
but he kept saying "ice" and pointing towards the coffee...
in the end, i gave up i asked my fren who is a senior to handle...
and my fren insisted that he was toking abt why there is an extra charges towards the total amount...
and my fren kept explaining and pointing towards the coffee too... and the sence was damm funny lohx...
my another fren kept laughing non-stop... ( evil sia... -.-" making the jap tourist ma lu... )
in the end lucky one of our senior full timer knows how to speak jap.. and my fren called him to ask for his help...
and i was thinking... "wow... kinda cool to know some jap. huh?"
in the end.. the result was....................................
i was right.. -.-" * dun believe me la!
he wanted ice coffee!
arha... i began to think ima getting smart sia... :P ( of cos, nvr say out, think to myself only... :) )

2nd case....

3 gals in their mid / early 20 was sitting down onto a table...
i was carrying the dishes to the customers when suddenly i was called in...
and i noticed her frens was laughing...
and the gal who called me was standing and i was wondering what actually happen??
and she told me there is a crockroach under the chair...
ok.. ya guys may know its a small case... but seriously ima scared of them too!!!
but ya know... cannot ma lu infront of gals mah... so after serving the dishes ima carrying * thats Of cos!
i grabbed a cloth and heroly caught the crockroach... and i even open the cloth to look at the crockroach... oh no... damm disgusting man... i quickly close the cloth and throw the whole cloth away... arha... quite satisfied with myself... caught a crockroach today... yay!!! 1st time in my life lehz... :P opps ( still dare to say.. -.-")

so thats abt all... quite a day baz... i mean long and tired...
AND ANd
lucky was not scolded for not appearing last sunday.... kinda skipped the work shift for some reasons when i was supposed to work... -.-" whew... lucky they dun even give a damm.. which make me feel damm happy... :)

Thinking...

2007-03-23T14:08:00.000+08:00

this was a tots which suddenly came to me while ima stoning... it just came suddenly to me.. so i quickly noted it dwn... woah... suddenly blunt it all out... funny huh...? nvm...

aren't hrm suppose to haf that bit of trustworthy thingy...
thinking back...
why does it haf to be the other oneS who always haf the most impact...
its not like believing in other oneS are bad or what... the more opinions the better...
but with the reactions ya haf at most of the time... ima really became someone who seems very untrustful to ya...
some1 told ya abt that thing... and ya actually paused and think...
another told ya abt that thing... and ya actually agree...
another told ya abt that thing... and ya also BELIEVE...
do i look like someone who does bad things behind ppl???
i dun and i hate that! TRULY hate that...
and its very confusing at times...
ya say...
someone says it alright...
another time, another someone say made the right decision...

izzit this suppose to be just 2 ppl problem... i dun understand at times...
do i really look a cheater..? or ima like a playboy..?
yes, i admit i do not know how to act like 1... but i nid some times too... ima a human too... its not like imaa going to hurt ya or what.. i also wanna make things right... ya say ya try a lot... ok i dun dun agree... but i am also trying... its just that... ya did show it all out but i didn't... and ima fighting inside too...

i haf already tried all my best to express out my feelings le... i also was trying to explained to ya what really happen... but did ya give me a chance at all? 2 times.. and was like... ya are avoiding... i know its quite embarressing to show up infront of a hrm... i dun blame you.. but sometimes ppls really do haf to face to reality... and in a relatioship its not always abt happiness... there are bound to be alot alot of unhappiness, misunderstandings, querralings, sharing, solving problems together, confronting with each other, having fun with frens together, having fun together alone etc... thats what really makes a relationship interesting and keep the bound btwn them more closely... its not just abt happiness... just like frens and frens...

just recently, all the truths was brought out to me... i was like... (ya see... if ya are the one who is being kept in the dark of all these..) won't ya be abit feel pissed at all?? AND to make it worse, it kinda like concerns of the alot ppls... and i was thinking.. Huh... ya know abt that which i DUNNO at all... wth... i really hate them for now... i wish it would be temporily... how i wish it would be... am feeling like a gong gong and a stupid person...

and at times... i really cant 24 hrs with like some other ppl do... and ya know its impossible... i can only sms a take care msgs at times... and try to communicate thru smses like "eaten?" or"slp early" or "tmr rmbr to wake up early... got sch. dun POUND?" all these are really from the bottoms of my heart and not just simply a smses which i simply type.. it sincerely came frm the bottom of my heart...

saying it was not the right one... not the right one... but haf we really sitted down and solve the problems together until it really came to a conclusion where there are no more ways for us to solve it....? none at all... "0"... be the one saying "waiting for the right one to appear"... why not say "try our best to make the one to be the right one".... cos i believe that with no efforts putted inside it... theres bound to be nothing...

it truly came to me too late...

Another day gone...

2007-03-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

So... been staying at home one whole day...
put na to go fren hse... but in the end, lazy and slp at least half the day... whew...

and at times.. i really dunno what i can do at home... liew... always slp and slp... like a pig -.-"
other than pig...? nothing to do liao...
so my imagination became wild again huh? can't can't.... must made myself busy....

so... today is the 1st time in 3 months since i watch TV shows....
was bored... so i switched on the TV at 7pm to watch the central affairs 2...
so... really easily get emo. over small little things... like a girl -.-"
its a very meaningful show... tho i only watched it today the 1st time.. and i dunno what happens in the 1st place and it was the third last episode already....
after that... ard 8.30pm... theres a show named "qian you jia ren"...
it says abt family values and etc...
tho' its a short 30 minutes show...
but it tells ppl ----> "cherish b4 its too late"... yep... so true...
and after that... she came back... omfg... dun really like her pressure... nvm... was sitting in the living with her sitting at home watching tv... reach home dun bath de -.-" and i can predict that shes going to sit there till 11pm than bath.... "yuckS"... this kind of woman disgusts me...
but i sincerely wish she would wake up soon.. if not shes going to be destroying herself in the end eventually... Yep...

so dunno what to write liao...
just a tot.. is my future bright..?
got a feeling that its.... haiz.... nvm... still got 2 yrs NS... YEP...

Hmm..

2007-03-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

So it was ard 1am plus now... and ima blogging about wat happens ytday...
so... i was slping till ard 11am then was woken up by ryan's msg... so...
its bB time.. :) luV it...
and we have decided to eat at jp... after our bB trip... so we went to chop seats at kopitiam...
and in the end we went to eat at fish and co.
no idea suddenly go there makan... but its rather fulling but eX...
still owe ryan 26 bucks.. will rmbr that...

so.... he told me abit more... like contacted her... talk to her.. and everything...
and i was like "wow"... and "shocked"... cos i dun expected that there are lots more ppls who are involved in this things....
at that moment, i was like "WTH"... why me...?? did i ever disturb them or what??
but in the end.. it was not them faults... the decision will be the same even if without them...
nvm...

so after eating for like 1 hr plus... woah... full till cant walk for me....
but managed to go wee's hse and played monopoly... for like till 9.40pm... cos was called to watch 300... it was a nice show... very sad... 300 soldiers bearing the pains for the sake of their families... woman and son/daughter... c'on... imagine these 300 soldiers... bear to sacrifice their lives for the sake of their "LOVE" ones.... woah...

SuX...

2007-03-21T09:23:00.000+08:00

So now was ard 9am plus....
was feeling quite suxy... so the same old feeling was back...
it was tiring... really tiring...
conflicts and all...
can't really stand my mum keep nagging abt this and that...
i know she is already very headaches abt all the money thingy and the rest...
but could she spare a tot to others... like if ya keep pushing all the troubles to someone else...
i mean ya troubles... dun you feel that ya are adding more burden to that person...
i know its selfish to think that way... but...
just please close one eye and do everything normally... no use complaining because whats done is already done...
sometimes, you must haf no regret in whatever ya doing.... even tho' thats not wat ya want... but its kinda good for everyone...
ya, thats why i kept everything from ya... its not what i want.. but i know once i told ya everything ya will keep toking ard...
adults world are scary and realistic.... ima kinda scared at times.... not scared that i say... its kinda like... dunno....
but ya cant be a kid always... i haf to face reality... yep...

Big... :)

2007-03-20T18:47:00.000+08:00

WheW... i haf tons of things to BLog..... Alot... Alot... ALot...
Hm... WHen ShoulD i starT..
Let me See... ArhA...

19/3/2007 Monday
Ok, i went to work at ard 3.50pm...
wow, it was a great day for me ya know?
we working candy bar with kenneth and her...
and it was quite fast... our last closing... but a pity when we havnt closed our things...
the workers have already so fast and demolish all the things away... hmmm.. so 2 years le huh?
so its really that "parting" in life is really inevitable....
when done at closing, we collect all the things away and carry all the heavy stuffs inside into the respective places... and it truly trains one person fittness.... and guess what... i can do all the things until all the way ima on my way home and i dun feel a panting... ( am i strong... YES... :) )

ok, i admit i luv this kind of events which are very happenings... so in the end i was reluctant to go home despite being encouraged to go home by the mgr... stubborn.. one word.. -.-"
but it was real fun... Fun...
and one thing.. suddenly feel very pissed off sia when TH just took the 4 water chest nut and keep saying whats that when i haf repeated upteen to him that its water chest nut... dunno why.. but just suddenly feeling theres a fire flame pushing up towards the top of my head... funny... sry doesn't really mean it.. to kenneth and TH.. dua bu qi....!
than ard 3am plus, me and a few others go off... and i wake up at ard 8.44am...
ima not late.. yes... bath and everything... when i reached, eariler by 20 mins..... :)
and ya know what... i bought choc to eat yesterday and leaveit till this morning to eat.. and i was given another pack of choc to eat again... woah.. and it was the same brand type.. amazing... hm... she really made my day bright.. very BRIGHT that it hurts my eyes... thank you...
but the candy bar was lk kinda small huh? it kinda small till i began to doubt whether if during peak hrs, and with 2 ppls who are thin... i doubt we can move that freely and fast to clear the queue... nvm...
and after that, here i am blogging.... er... still slpt for 2 hrs.... not bad... kinda energtic... very...
ima a strange and weird guy....
ok, thats all, dun wanna think le... i know theres more... but whats the rest...!
nvm..

Ima sorry...

2007-03-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry... i know i sux at times...
i dunno why... its just you ctrl me too much ya know...
i dun like the feeling of being ctrl... too much... i really shld believe there shld be a certain extent...
if i wanna let ya know everything abt me, i would do it instead... but i think my personality just couldn't allow me to do this...

MiSs BloG...

2007-03-18T20:42:00.000+08:00

So its been a long long time.... ok... nvm... just 1 day only...

17/3/2007 saturaday
the day started 12pm....
ok.... i was late cos i wake up ard 10am... and acc. mum to eat at koufu...
i know i was going to be late... but i just dun really care about it...
in the end, i was 30 mins late... but surprisingly the mgr was not in... woo.. cool...
and my classmate became the duty mgr for the morning shift... really sry abt it... my fren...

was smsing with her on that day... surprising she knows everythings...
and i even share some with her... ok... so the feelings are back...?
nahz... surprisingly i was not trouble over her... or something like that i think...
just... i know whos the one for me... :)

and it was like ard 9pm.... i went off to took the mrt to rush to my fren's hse to play mahjong...
yahoo...!!! i wanna learn learn learn... it was like so fun able to play mahjong with some frens of ya till day break and went to haf mac breakfast... yummy...

so frens are supposed to be close together...? and with no secrets sharing btn them?? i dun think so... even couples or husband and wife would haf their own secrets and i respect that.... so actually as a matter of facts... you cant really do much.... and you gotta respect that... yep.. just a tot...

and i went home to slp for like... 1.5 hrs... omg... forcing yourself to wake up the feeling was damm terrible... very terrible... and the 1st thing ya went to gv was suddenly to see all the customers rushes in to buy tickets without even wondering whether haf the GV open yet cos the shutter was still CLOSED.. c'on... and my very 1st customers would haf the cheek to ask me whether the GV has opened ornot?? and when i answer nope.. they just laugh and say sorry... -.-" thats kinda sarcastic.... for me... so thats abt all for today... :)

Alright...

2007-03-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

Seems like my work at super dog is finishing soon...
Yep, tho i really needs money but i shall go find other jobs instead...
at this moment, just stick to work at JPGV...

Frankly speaking, ppls working in jpgv are really lucky...
tho the managements are so strict and the managers + CEs are strict towards you...
you will nvr feeled like you are being torture by them...
they are just like so nice... so lovely... its true...

why did i say this....?

alright, here goes...

full - timer was supposed to be pay 1.3k per month at superdog.... 800 cash + 500 CPF...
due to the facts that PR citizens are not permitted to haf Cpf, they are logically to be able to earn 1.3k in total...
when i asked... " did they?" and he told me... he got 800 per month only... so wheres the 500 gone??? the management eat it away...
ok... that truly suxs....
guess thats the real world.. true face of the world...

here goes.. second, i know they are lacking of peoples... so they nid more ppls... i mean nids more ppls to stay to help during peak period... and i normally do this in gv without any managements told me to do ( except HY told me to leave immediately ) without pay of cos...

and this full timer... the same guy... was asked to stay and helped until the peak was over... to add it worse.. the attitude of the bastard was damm sux... ok... i really wanna ask her... is foreign that nice to bully despite the facts that they are willing to work for ya at such a low salary with an even lower amount of salary when the management just eat the 500 off his salary...? liew... of cos.. as usual... i just do my own job... i just think to myself only... poor guy... and this guy have a wife who is 7 months pregnancy... omg... really hopes this foregin will be able to find a better job elsewhere...

ok, the work was going well today.. just realised another classmate was intro. into superdog... wow... i just tot to myself... its quite happy to be able to work with your own classmate...

just a tips to those people who read this entry of mine... ( tho i know only 2 people will read it, one of my cousin and me, nvm )
when you go super dog eat....

combo set... ( tink so )---> here goes...
bacon chilli cheese dog... with onions...
a med. fries will do
and a small drinks will do... best get ice lemon tea... truely brewed by them... :)

how do you eat... dip the fries onto the chilli sauce with onions on the hotdog....
and ya will know the fabulous taste of the fries with the chilli sauce...
and when you have finishes the fries, the sauce will be half or 3/4 finsih...
thats when you grab the whole bun and eat it...
and not forgetting to drink the small ice lemon tea... trust me...
wow.. anyway.. it was a procedures for me to eat.... dunno whether the majority of ya guys.. it works for me and i luv it... :)

guess wat... it saves you quite a sum of money...

so her b'day was today...
happy 20th b'day!! :)
hope her happy today...
tho' shes always alone...
but she will nvr be forgotten...

Woah...

2007-03-16T11:41:00.000+08:00

Music truly have theirs magical effects...
The lyrics, the chorus etc looks so simple...
but its not...
And it surely brings ones spirit up...

Ok, this is funny... real funny...
1st, ya say i was angry with ya...
i dun understand... maybe my smses looks really fierce... sry abt that...
but that was a long time ago...
and ya msg me back to wish me happy everlasting relationship... this is real funny...
what is the meaning of this...

i tot for a moment... ima really sorry for creating ya this misery...
ima not sure whether are you waiting for me... or wat...
but i just wanna hope ya be the once small and cute happy gal...
to be loved by so many other guys... in the world...

What a DaY....

2007-03-15T12:31:00.000+08:00

Wake up at ard 10am... nothing to do anyway...
so just slept at the sofa facing up the ceiling listening to music...
just luv 专属天使.. its a dam nice song.. yep..
till its ard 1pm plus... gotcha get up soon... nid to go to my fren hse and learn things...
yep... thats my day... boring and lifeless huh? i agree myself too...

ok, and i nvr go in the end... nvm... ill go nxt week... kinda feel that lazy bugs just attacked me...

so after thinking a long time... so shes really the most imp gal in my life...
i haf to admit... ima worry abt her... always trying to carry the burden to yourself... i know ya trying not to let more ppl be affected... but i really hate ya for this... really... nvm...
and what can i do now...? guess just pretend nothing happen... cos thats wat she wants me to do and the best i can do nw...

yes... its so nice... the feeling cos of the happyness she feels in her... i can really feel she is much more relieved after toking her problems out to me... thats the way... tho we cant be together but the feeling is just so............ great........

just a tots... please... theres always a limit to everything... i dunno why some ppls kept doing this... but shes a gal... just stop disturbing her... b4 ill really become mad... real mad... ya nvr wanna see that... i promise ya...

oH.....

2007-03-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

Ok....
Now its my questions who are answered by her...
oh god... why does this matter haf to become more and more serious...
i dun understand too... this matter was supposed to be both of us...
why does that person who i dun know and i dun even wanna know cos i detest these kind of ppls haf to go tok sh1t...
if really haf to know the whole truth in order to help her... i would surely do that... i promised...
looking back now, i feel that i was actually the one who is being left behind.. dunno exactly what happened...
i agreed totally with her... one of her past entry in her entries... completely agreed...
c'on, to that person, ya dun really haf to do that right? even if ya wanna do that..
do that to a guy... me... not to a female... she... really its like... wth... i now also dunno what to do...
maybe i shld let the matter be settled by her... until a day if she needed help... ill gladly help her...

Feeling of happiness....

2007-03-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

Yep... alright back to home...
just finished the gifts and etc...
was very happy at it...
hope it all goes well... it will be...
trust me...
this time.. gotcha make her happy...
thats all i want her to be... yep...
she'll always be the special person in my heart...
she will be... ya!!

Oh no, now i know blog is a very good place for someone to put their thoughts into it...
luv it...
now i understand why people blogs...
hmmm... blogs do haf it cons and pros i think... specially when ya haf no one to tok to...
your real problems... not even ur parents...
blog is just like another close frens which always open his ears and heart ya problems...
and it has even a function of record all the memories which ya want it to be forever...
blog... i luv ya!!
ok... abit over reacted...
its cons...? Dun wanna say... kinda critise the blog... yep...

Feeling a sense of achievement.... Yep...

2007-03-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

Yahoo... gotcha my result and i passed... but guess what.. i did damm badly...
can't afford to go on like this le... i gotcha get at least 3.5 GPA nxt sem... yep..
that'll definitely be my target... i swear...

Oww.. just finishes drawing the b'day card... yahoo...
looking back at the card again.. i gotcha laugh.. the words + drawings all are not that nice...
i really put my greatest concentration on it.. really hope she won't detest it... hope she will like it...

argh... gotcha bath soon and go to jp to buy things.... yeppy... its going to be a real one this time... i swear
now gotcha go find a wrapping paper + paper bag... hmm... where can i go find those things...? maybe walk ard jp, ill definitely find them.. yep!!!

Kinda a Bad Day.....

2007-03-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

Argh... was happy that i can spare some time to buy something for hmm.. before her b'day... wohooo
but... when i reached that place... it rained...! so no choice haf to buy an umbrella and i have to buy 2 umbrella instead of one... liew... nvm... its quite worth it... i guess...
and... when i bought the umbrella, it stopped rain... wth... retribution...?

Reached the place... yahooooooo... was happy and keep searching for the thing... liew... keep finding and keep finding and found a cheap one and one which i could afford... but in the end... i was scrammed... dammit... i was a IT freak.. i admit... i must learn more abt those IT thingys le... Yes.. ima gotta do that... Nvm... A lesson learnt... nvr ever trust cheap things... ya...

So... thats all for the day... tired? nAh... keep thinking what to do now... but i think i haf to really do the last resort le... yes... ill do it... cos it was hmm.. really hope ya haf a good b'day this year with the little present ima going to gif ya as a gift.... yep!!!

Hmm... happy...? HopE...

2007-03-13T01:14:00.000+08:00

Wow...
Today was a dam tiring day for me...
nvr imagine a once strong me will be falling today at the candy bar... (I am strong.. i think..)
was rushing all the things...
but was delayed by the leakage of both the oil and dispensers...
hmm.. no choice have to clean them up.. specially the oil... omg... slowly bit by bit and it keeps dripping on the flr whenever i cleaned it dry... kinda tulan... i admit...
and to make things worse... both the poppers burnt... woah...
nvm, can keep my arms strong strong... yep... keep scrubing scrubing...

hm... glad she was happy in her heart... i hope...
really wanna say "....."... but how to say that out... quite a cowardly person huh...? Yep...
I might as well go to hell.... yep...

Wee.....

2007-03-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

kindA worK foR 8 hrS
anD waS busY foR nearlY 6 hrS
walkinG herE anD therE
thou' itS kindA suX but nvM, its a fruitful daY...
sooneR or latEr... yeP...
1'st timE bloGging, dunnO how And WhAt to Blog.. Cos of the Codes.. Argh..
NvM, Back To FixIng The CoDingS..

Emotion.Feeling

FinallY...

Feeling strange....

Feeling dam sick...

fear...

Working...

4 dayS in a row

meaningless...

Panda Eyes...

Tiring!

Normal...

Tired....

B'daY...

FUCK OFF....

Moody Day...

tonS to say.... am i thinking alot again... like...

2 days...

usual...

Tired Day... but happy... :X

Lame... Boring...

Boring...

Different...

^^ / :) / :> / :} / : ]

(*&*^&%^%*^*

Si Zai De Confused... And Words Kills...

Feel Great...

Boring and tiring...

sudden...?

TruthS...

Cant i just smile..?

Ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Candy Bar Closing...

Last Day... GoodByeZ...

Thoughts...

Blog..

Pay day...

WarM Feelng....?

Thinking...

another day...

Hmm....

Normal WeekEnds...

Thinking...

Another day gone...

Hmm..

SuX...

Big... :)

Ima sorry...

MiSs BloG...

Alright...

Woah...

What a DaY....

oH.....

Feeling of happiness....

Feeling a sense of achievement.... Yep...

Kinda a Bad Day.....

Hmm... happy...? HopE...

Wee.....

(&^&%^%^